Spring is in the air.. Spring is finally among us! I remember when I used to go to one of my therapists, I told her that I always felt off during the Winter. Something about the cold, the darkness, the holidays.. I still haven't figured out why I feel so in the dark. But now, the sun is out longer, the temperature is in the 60's, and I feel so much better. I definitely can not wait for summer! I went for a bike ride today, and I smelt the gas from a lawn mower, the freshly cut grass and bonfires in the air. Something about that comforted me and put me at ease. While I still have a lot of work to do but physically and emotionally to recover from the Winter stage, I am very optimistic about what the next few months have in store for me.
Distorted Body image Have you ever stared at a word for so long that you start to think it isn't a real word and that there is something wrong with it? Well, I think this is the same thing girls do to their bodies.
It is so much easier to listen to the negative thoughts rather than the positive. I'm talking from experience. Once you let a bad thought in, it doesn't just sty as one thought. It gets deep into your mental state and explodes, developing several other negative thoughts. You begin to think that something is truly wrong, or that you are not good enough. We are constantly picking ourselves apart, and it has to stop; but it wont stop until you force it to. Think of your inner voice as a boy who has asked you out but you are not interested. He is constantly texting you and calling you and trying to get your attention. He will not stop unless you push him away and do not give him the time of day. The same goes for your negative thoughts. We need to push them away and out of our minds, and eventually they will no longer be an issue. We need to make a change, and it has to start now. I believe in all of you, and you are all beautiful regardless of your weight, size, height or age. Victoria's Secret Fashion Show.. So, to many of you on Instagram, watching this fashion show is "forbidden". Naturally, since I have been through the triggering phase of an eating disorder, I understand why many do not want to watch. I myself am not watching it either; not because I refuse to, but because I don't want to. I'd much rather relax in bed watching the Food Network and Holiday Specials on ABC Family. Anyway, It is basically promoting skinny, underweight girls in lingerie while also convincing the majority of society that is what they should look like. Who would promote that? Don't get me wrong, I DO NOT promote this flaunting of skeleton bodies, however, have you ever looked at it from another perspective? These models do this as their job, and while we may not agree with it, that does not mean that they are any less human than we are. Similarly, it is like bikini competitors. They want to be as lean yet strong as possible, but no one belittles them for their decisions. So why would it be okay for us to do that to the models of Victoria's Secret?: It's not. Now, I am not saying that it isn't okay for us to disagree with their decisions, but we must respect them at the same time. If it triggers you, than by all means, do not watch it! It all comes down to knowing what is best for you and your mental stability. Maybe these models have a grip on their life and health, and I'm sure they are aware of what is best for them.
Everyone has different interests in mind, models included. What works for our health may not be the same as theirs, and while it is obvious that some are undernourished, not all of them are. If you got the chance to examine all of the models, some of them have wonderful curves that compliment them very well. Basically, this sort of goes hand in hand with bullying; judging other people when we don't know them. We certainly gt upset when someone assumes and believes the stereotypes of various mental illnesses and eating disorders, so why is it okay for us to assume that they are purposely "ruining their lives" by modeling? Once again, it isn't. We need to do what is best for us, but also in a respectful way. Goodnight all xoxo Here comes Fall!
You know when you see Pumpkin Spice EVERYTHING that Halloween is approaching and you have about 1-2 weeks before Fall officially starts. Fall is probably my favorite season. It's not too hot, not too cold. Not to mention the ADORABLE clothes you get to wear to school and the crisp leaves crunching on the ground. The sunset is earlier, yet even more gorgeous than in the summer. The sky turns a pinkish orange and dims into the clouds. What's not to love? Oh, and my favorite season is Halloween. I've never dressed up as a kitten or mouse, those costumes always aggravated me. They are just teenage girls trying to look sexy while going around and basically giving themselves away to strangers. I was/am always the one to dress up as a hideous, bloody zombie or something of that nature. I will never be too old to Trick-Or-Treat. And although I don't eat very much of the candy that I collect, I love the idea of giving out candy on the Holiday. I usually end up giving most of it to my brother or friends, and trust me they are grateful for it :P October is around the corner guys, which means picking Pumpkins, hayrides, hot apple cider..Get ready!
First Day of School...
So, we all have the feeling in our stomachs the day before school starts back up. Whether it is a feeling of excitement or fear, we all experience something. For me, it is a mix of nerves with excitement. Taking all honors classes is a hard load to handle, however I actually don't mind doing coursework so I can manage it. What I'm most excited for is to get back into a schedule. For someone like me, I like to be on a schedule. I'm actually pretty bad when it comes to spontaneous decisions or plans-I'm working on it- where I get super DUPER anxious. So, I think a schedule is good for me. Also, I love to be organized. It's most likely the OCD in me, but it's better to know where/what everything is than to not know at all. I have a dry-erase marker planner and it has done wonders for my summer plans. I think if you are organized, you'll be less likely to fall behind on school work, errands, etc. I definitely recommend that everyone gets some sort of planner! So yes, tomorrow is the first day of my Sophomore year and I am nervous yet excited. School means getting up at 5:15 every morning, and doing my hair and makeup before I can even fully open my eyes. However, this prepares me for the working life ahead, so I'll take this with a stride. Wish me luck!
Good luck to all of you starting school as well! Being Strong..What does it mean?Most of the time, we don't hear people call women strong. And most of the time, if they do, then they are reffering to the physical apperance.
I think being a strong women goes so much deeper than just appearance. We could be as strong as a boulder yet give ourselves up every day/night to a woman/man that we aren't fully comfortable with just because we are insecure. It takes a lot of a woman to feel comfortable and confident in her own skin. Being fully confident is a wonderful thing, but I think what is even more admirable is when someone does not feel 100% confident, yet continues to carry herself with pride. So next time you think that you aren't strong, believe me when I say that you are. You are beautiful and wonderful. You are strong💕 It's Funny...It's funny how smells can remind you of objects, people and memories. This morning I was riding my bike, and I smelt freshly cut grass that had been dampened by water sprinklers. It reminded me of the days when I played travel softball. Getting out on to the field at 7 a.m. every weekend, being forced to endure the smell of wet grass. I grew to love it; it felt like home. Then I quit softball to pursue my career of dance. It was not an easy decision on me, nor my parents. In fact, my dad was devastated. He was actually mad at me for quite some time, said I was throwing away a gift. So when I rode by the tan house with sprinklers on and freshly cut grass, I was instantly reminded of those days. The days of frustration and enlightenment. It's funny what our body can do.
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